Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Random blabbering.

This is going to be an extremely corny post,
but I'm extremely corny, so eh.
I feel like this summer is all about change and growth.

This is my first summer as a mother of two.
That alone as pushed me and molded me into a different person.
When you have a baby, you don't think you can possibly ever love
anyone the way you love that little person.
And then you have another and your love just doubles.
As a mother of two, you have less time for yourself,
so you want to make the time you do have things you really enjoy.

I started painting our house.
All white.
I never in a million years would have thought I'd want all white walls,
but it's therapeutic, really. 
Starting fresh, the cleanliness of it all, the brightness,
the walls just make me so happy to be in my home everyday.
I've been going room by room and painting, purging,
and decorating.
That's another thing. 
Getting rid of all the clutter and junk is so freeing.
I'm no where close to finished and it already feels so good.
We're trying hard to teach ourselves to live more minimalistic.
We want our children to want experiences and memories-
not toys and other junk.

They're so hard to come by and keep as an adult,
especially as a mother.
And for the first time in my life, 
I'm able to choose all the people I spend my time with.
I'm not forced to hang out with anyone because of classes
or work schedules.
And I'm finding more and more that the people I want to see
are the ones that were there the whole time.

Maybe it's an age thing,
but I feel comfortable with who I am.
My sometimes ridiculous fashion choices,
my not so tight skin on my belly,
the direction I want our family to go, 
my life choices as a whole, etc.
I'm confident in all of it and I love who I am.

And the thing I am most grateful for is my relationship with Luis.
It hasn't always been sunshine and roses for us.
We've worked extremely hard to get to where we are.
It took a lot of time and a lot of patience and trust.
But I'm so happy with the outcome.
I don't believe in soul mates, exactly.
But I believe that we're pretty perfect for each other.

This life is so beautiful.
Sure there are bad days.
Luis and I argue, 
Olivia sometimes makes me want to 
pull out my hair.
But the good is so so good
and that's what I'm going to focus on.
I've felt a shift this summer and I love it.

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